What is happening to us.. this is not characteristic of two people madly in love. I can't think what is causing this friction. It's not the worry of plan Z anymore.. Is it the distance? Is it me?

When the person whose opinion means the most to you is constantly criticising you, implying that you are careless and lazy and spend most of your time on facebook, youtube and forums.. stops you from engaging in extra-curricular activities that you learn a lot from, and makes you cut ties with the few people that you actually enjoy the company of because they have some paranoia that the associate is flirtatious.. and then to top it off expresses to you that they miss the company of their past love interest.. it can make one quite bitter. He really thinks I'm dumb, and I am finding that I am starting to playing this character because I am starting to believe that that is what I really am.

The recent tensions basically started when I joked that I was wasting time on facebook, with the intention of actually drawing his attention to the fact that I was e-mailing the members of my Afghan group, expecting encouragement and pride from him. Contrary to the response I expected, he proceeded to tell me not to waste time on facebook and to concentrate on my studies. He criticised that I must have spent an hour on invitations and when I expressed my sadness at his unexpected criticism he mocked me with: "YAYYYYYYYYYY GO SJJJJJJJJ GO QMUL AFGHANSS WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!".

Naturally, I'm put off the afghan group, the same way that I became put off the Islamic group. But I have already sent out invites, and cannot let them down. He tells me to be proffessional, but in the same breath tells me to cancel the meeting and postpone it for another week so that I can assign the members (whom I have not met yet) the task of writing and e-mailing me a list of 5 things we can do. I tell him that I do not think that this is a good idea, and immediately he is offended that I did not take his advice. I mean who am I, a mere lazy time waster, to challenge the views of MJ The Great.

I'm truly sorry for all the pain I've caused you. I am a bad person, there's nothing more to it. I always tell you that you deserve better than me.. so please go and get it. Hollywood-model-refined girls are in abundance in LA, and most would throw themselves at you.

I think we both need time to cool off.. this is way too much drama. It's eating into our study time, neither of us can afford this right now. No msn, no e-mails, no texts, no blog.. I'll contact you in a few weeks.

Take care of yourself.