"Lump in my throat"

Dear Blog,

How are you today?

She ends the convo again with her obvious awkwardness and very transparent sense of "I'm offended, bye"... trying to give me a guilt trip, as if her demeanor and words that induced my honest, polite, and straight forward email in the first place did not:

1) Give me a "lump in the throat"
2) Made me feel "offended"
3) Made me feel like an intruder and "misunderstood"?


And I'm supposed to feel bad about not automatically taking her previous words and coldness as warmth..... and naaz her and say "awww I'm so sorry for giving you an email that was in line with the tone you were clearly conveying to me, and that you felt bad reading what you asked for"?

I'm sorry, that's not how the world, or my world, works.. that's not the type of person I am, I am human and have rights and deserve mutual consideration. I will take and respond to someone as they clearly convey themselves to me; and give to them based on vibes or words I get from them, I'm not psychic nor a needy loser. I can have anything I want in this world, and I won't shortchange myself one bit. People should not take my warmth and kindess as a weakness that can be used to step all over me.. Just as I am kind, I can also be so harsh as to unleash a raging-hell that will destroy and break a person within 2.768 minutes, and leave one amidst the abruptness of a striking coldness.

-m